Love

"Because the world is round it turns me on
Because the wind is high it blows my mind

Love is all, love is new
Love is all, love is you

Because the sky is blue, it makes me cry
Because the sky is blue. " 

from Because by Beatles

Just came across the blog of two people in love.

I knew her as a "little sister" of a classmate" in my early 20s and there she was a collegue in my mid 30s. Elegant, moderate, graceful.. She became the image of model female in me. A charming young woman,  no more a little sister.

I knew him as a manager at work. Serious, a hidden fun, creative, solid. He was very helpful, gave me generous  advices in my next job. A bright young man.

He wrote on their first date " I am 14 years older. Do I really want a relationship again?.. What if I get hurt again?.."

I found in his words, Love that was mine once with my older lover.

Oh Love.. Love.. We inhabit you. We are you. We were you and we will be you.

Oh Love, I will be you again.

But for now they are Love. So inspiring, so bright, so fearful, so right.

A Dream Within A Dream

"Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

..."

From A Dream Within A Dream by Edgar Alan POE

A Baby Sleep and Don Quichotte

It was a very hard day for me in the middle of which I felt like Don Quichotte (which means: nuts, making a battle in every corner with the unseen enemy, ashamed of her own reactions).

But then the sleep and the trust of the new baby cat helped me to think back about serenity and confort.

I have been working hard to be able to cook in the new kitchen. Today my new home smelled baking börek in the owen.

A special day where at the end of 4 months, I could cook at home.

Many New(s)

I have been quiete for a long while.

1- Me and the cats, we moved to my parents basement flat in October. It took me months to find back the beautiful light on a photo taken.

2- I have started to go to sewing classes. I knew NOTHING about sewing but I sew a skirt on my first lesson and my second project is a coat (!)

3- This is our new family member, our baby chinchilla cat that Thomas acts like a leopard with and roars most of the time.

4- I dated with my primary school friend. All I remembered from those times, was that he was the only one who wanted to become an astraunot like me and that I liked him. It is good to be given the chance to go back and to see although it does not last long, it was a beautiful fly to try.

5- I had a chance to visit Arabia again with the precious company of my new knitting friend Bob.

It is good to feel your feet at the end of all the roads.

New Moon

The new moon tonight is told to symbolise "our feelings of Home, safety, our conditionings from childhood, our capability of intimacy. I reread this now in the colorful and lovely banualagoz.blogspot.com as I entered home and plugged in my computer.

I was late for the class(I was there towards the end) but did not miss at least, Banu's special New Moon course of Kundalini Yoga. The affection and the light of Banu embelished the evening. The united force of the participants was heard, their souls together formed this undescribable magnetic field. In my belated first kundalini yoga class, I was between mockery, maze, awe, admiration, peace, purification and lately tears when it came to pour the water behind and receive the new waters of the river.

Two days ago, I decided to stop playing the music I was bored with, embrace my lesson and get ready for the new day and hear the new songs played.

This afternoon, I met Leyla in my sister's new restaurant and was amazed by her energy. Especially her  unexpected way of grabbing people passing by. Her energy to catch "now" and her pleasure of tasting the fusillini pasta.

The yoga class ended singing all together May the Long Time Sun; once for the ones we were leaving behind(tears), once for our "now" and third and last one for our wishes:

"May the long time Sun shine upon you,

All love surround you

And the pure light within you

Guide your way home."

And I have to leave you behind, you that I wrote posts for, in the hope of creating a body of this absence.

May the pure light within you, guide your way home, because I couldn't.

I have a new day tomorrow. As blue as Leyla's eyes.

And I have my arms. My healthy arms.

Reading Wars of Alexander in Peace, at Home

  

Yesterday, I turned off the tv for awhile. I took my books of world history from my library and had a beautiful time reading the Hellenistic wars of Alexander and Persian and had to have some greek coffee.

This afternoon I went on with my reading upstairs in the bed with the company of Thomas and Chocolate.

I enjoyed the peace in our home while reading about the wars in human history.

The way to read, I copied it from a writer I always felt near: Montaigne. His reading is wondering between his books, with no worries and obligation. It is a pure bliss.

If you are as null as I am in history you may be interested in my books:

1- A Little History of the World by Ernst GOMBRICH which I love because it is written for young readers and is the opposite of boring

2- Toute L'Histoire du Monde by Jean Claude BARREAU that enchants you and grabs you from your world and tells a lot about the world history giving the consequences of the story told iin an easy style, as if chatting with a friend.

3- The Old Testament, the reading of which has always been like listening to a piece of Bach.

4- A World History by William H. Mc NEILL.

Hallelujah

(Photos courtesy of Banu since I was busy doing other things)

J'ai atrrapé le bouquet - I caught the (bucket :))

Alors on danse ! - So we dance !

with fave dancing shoes on

 ~ FIN ~